I heard on the radio the Guardian newspaper ran a page consisting of two words, "Oh, God."

http://slate.msn.com/id/2109242/

Well said.

I just wish Europeans (and everyone) could understand that they (the red staters) don't represent all of us. The fundamental difference that I see is that they (the red staters) have trainloads of values-values, values, values-that they need to IMPOSE on the rest of us. They can't live with the fact that people have other values. Blue staters, on the other hand, don't mind the fact that you have other values. The fact that Hollywood and mass media don't reflect your values doesn't mean you get to change Hollywood. If you don't like it, don't watch it. I don't like the Left Behind series-I don't read it.

And gay marriage-if I hear one more ignoramus complaining about how they need to protect marriage, I'm going to dash my brains out on the rocks. If you don't like gay marriage, don't marry a gay person.

And the slippery slope argument makes me sick. "What about if a person wants to marry a cat? Or a chair?"

Very simple.

Marriage should be a legal union between two people who are
a) at least 18 years old (or 16, or whatever.)
b)unrelated
c)able to consent.

That's it. That covers everyone. The state has legitimate reasons to ban marriage between people who are related and those who are unable to meaningfully consent. Other than that, I openly defy anyone to show how the state has any legal justification to ban any marriage.

Still can't believe the victory, but have gotten over it.

A few points:

1) Whenever anyone says, "Values", simply put the word "My" in front of it.
Values are personal. I don't mind your values, whatever they are, just keep
them out of my face and off of my Constitution.

2) I'm not sure why Kerry lost, but it sure wasn't because he didn't have a plan.
Nobody has a plan for Iraq, it's a godawful mess. And it's Bush's baby. He has nowhere
to hide, and no excuses. When it goes to hell, hopefully America will make him pay. Hopefully.

3)The Republican gloating is pretty nauseating. I didn't gloat about the Red Sox. I was happy, and proud, but I didn't demand that anyone acknowledge me if they didn't want to. And have you noticed that they never have an argument? They give you their talking points-"it was about values", "dont change horses", "he was strong on terrorism", and when you challenge them-"whose values?"-"if incompetence is not a reason to change, what is?"-"how is failing to seal the borders or inspect the cargo being strong on terrorism?"-they always fall back on their imagined Kerry failings. Republicans don't want to discuss, and they never have any facts.

Conservatives are people who are angry that it isn't still 1954.

Argh.

Still can't believe the victory, but have gotten over it.

A few points:

1) Whenever anyone says, "Values", simply put the word "My" in front of it.
Values are personal. I don't mind your values, whatever they are, just keep
them out of my face and off of my Constitution.

2) I'm not sure why Kerry lost, but it sure wasn't because he didn't have a plan.
Nobody has a plan for Iraq, it's a godawful mess. And it's Bush's baby. He has nowhere
to hide, and no excuses. When it goes to hell, hopefully America will make him pay. Hopefully.

3)The Republican gloating is pretty nauseating. I didn't gloat about the Red Sox. I was happy, and proud, but I didn't demand that anyone acknowledge me if they didn't want to. And have you noticed that they never have an argument? They give you their talking points-"it was about values", "dont change horses", "he was strong on terrorism", and when you challenge them-"whose values?"-"if incompetence is not a reason to change, what is?"-"how is failing to seal the borders or inspect the cargo being strong on terrorism?"-they always fall back on their imagined Kerry failings. Republicans don't want to discuss, and they never have any facts.

Conservatives are people who are angry that it isn't still 1954.

Argh.

Dammit. Dammit. I can't believe he won. I can't believe it. It is times like these that I cannot believe my fellow human beings. I cannot believe they don't see through this. I am ashamed of us. Yes, there were harsh criticisms of President Bush as well, but COME ON. This man is demonstrably ignorant, and proud of the fact. He doesn't read, and doesn't understand the "reality based community." If you're a woman, God help you. If you're a prisoner, God help you. And if you're in the military, God help you. This is a dark, dark day.

Now listening: REM, Monster
"Circus Envy"

Waiting for my courier. Have to stay, but really have nothing to do until he comes.

Waiting for something to happen.

I should explain-my wife and I are at a really bad place right now. We've backed ourselves into a corner financially and are baling madly to get out. I do love her. I do love my child. They are both good, decent people who deserve better than I can give them.

Sigh.

I want to blame Rollins for this dark place I have gotten myself into. But it's not his fault either. I got myself into it, knowing full well it would be hard to get out of. I took out the Get In The Van audiobook a while back,and I've just been on a Rollins-Black Flag kick since then. It's brought out all the anger I try to hide and bury under bonhomie.

I try not to decorate, Henry, but it's hard, man.

www.21361.com

Gave up on Augie March for now. Too dense.

Now reading: No Man Is An Island, Thomas Merton.
Just finished Garrison Keillor's Love Me . It was very good, although I find his radio show boring as heck.

Also continuing to work on Salam Pax. Since that's kind of what started me doing this, I should give some props. Like he needs them, I'm sure.

Still tired. Still on call.

Read a lot of blogs last night. I don't think I quite get it, yet. Doing this feels like whining to me-like who would really care? I probably haven't had a single damn reader.

I emailed a girl named Peach. She was nice to me. Her blog is full of life, with a sad undercurrent. I probably shouldn't have talked to her, but I'm so desperately alone, I didn't know what else to do. She was too kind-I am too boring for her.

This is pointless, like shouting at the wind.

"But in the last analysis the individual person is responsible for living his own life and for 'finding himself'. If he persists in shifting this responsibility to somebody else, he fails to find out the meaning of his own existence."
-Thomas Merton

"Marriage for sex is like flying to London for the peanuts."

--Garrison Keillor

November 1

Reading: The Adventures of Augie Marsh

The boy is asleep.

I'm off the beeper for the night.

Sigh.

Nobody tells you parenthood is so fucking hard but it is.

It's a terrible burden. I can see my sickness creeping into him and it's not fair but I can't help it. I don't enjoy anything at all and I can't stand it anymore.

Sigh.

November 1, 2003

Feel terrible-wife is at home with kid, while I'm at work blogging.

Oh well.

On call-that constant state of nerves-always ready for the next beep.

Listening-"One I Love", REM, Eponymous

Remember when this song meant something.

In the car- "Institutionalized", Suicidal Tendencies mix tape.

That suits my mood better at the moment, but the Car CD is on the fritz, and there's no way to listen to tape at work.

Oh well.

October 31, 2003

It's amazing the extent to which people will go to avoid work. It's Halloween, yet half my company seems to think it's a holiday.

I hate Halloween. I hate Christmas.

I am going to bed.

October 31, 2003

I'm not sure why I wrote that about the girl. I'm sorry. That was crude and unnecessary.

I hate my job and I hate my life.

I've had enough.

October 30, 2003

"Without A Trace" was tremendous tonight.

When the girl at the pharmacy bent over to write my name on my prescription, I could see her cleavage.

I have to lower my cholesterol soon or I'm going to die.

I'm not sure that it matters, though.