[This week's 100 Word Challenge word is "Habit". This is called "Up In Smoke"]
It didn't solve anything. That wasn't the point. It was dumb, and it shortened your life, and it made everything smell bad. You couldn't do it anywhere anymore. It was incredibly expensive. Strangers always asked you to bum one. The craving was nearly constant, the need, the empty gnawing in your skull every time you let yourself go without one for a few hours. It wouldn't help, and it didn't fix it, but for a tiny, precise moment, the tension eased, you didn't want one for an hour or so, and you felt just a little bit like living again.
Smoking sucked. I finally quit, a little over a year ago. Except, I vape now. And, while it's the lesser of two evil habits, it's still an addiction because of the nicotine and it's still a bad habit that needs quitting.
ReplyDeleteMy dad quit smoking at about 35, he's 75 now, and he says there are times when he still wants a smoke. I empathize with anyone trying to kick the nicotine habit, it's tough.
ReplyDeleteIt doesn't solve anything .. you put that poignantly
ReplyDeleteA habit well described. I quit many years ago. I never miss it. In fact, I'm one of those who think if I can do it, you can too. Which is not true, of course. We are not all the same.
ReplyDeleteI smoked many years ago for a little while and I packed in by doing something nobody else I know has ever done. I put a packet of cigarettes under my kitchen sink. Because I knew there was an emergency supply in case I got desperate, I never did smoke them. It will probably not work for anybody else! You sum up the cravings well in these 100 words :)
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